The love- and then you freak out cause suddenly you need this person so much.

I don't know what I'm feeling right now, or what to feel.
Its like because I've been treated as shit I pull people away from me as being an asshole. Really?
Im punishing myself by feeling nothing.
Im really tired, I look up and down, back and forth and its useless; I try to change, to think above that stuff that gets me crazy and sad.

Then days passes by...
And its like we've never been to that kind of shit. It feels like I wasn't hurt at all and neither angry for sure.
Why is it hard to take control of all our emotions? For me its a fact that we need each other, that we bring to each other happines and joy, but we're just denying it all.
Is it too hard to show the world what we need,what we feel? We hate when we hurt each other and mostly going back and forth.
Then that feeling of insecurity comes back and I tell myself: darling you're noy prepared yet to take a step.
It's a fucking forcefield.

Ps: fuckķkkkk